This book shows your place in eternity, why you are here, what you are here to do.

Contents of The Cosmology of Love

Acknowledgements

Introduction

Preface

Chapter 1              Love is Life

Chapter 2              Love Learned is Who You Are

Chapter 3              Love Denied Is Your Pain and Your Learning

Chapter 4              God Who Is Love

Chapter 5              Finding Your Heart Space

Chapter 6              How Love Holds All Life

Chapter 7              The Love from the Earth

Chapter 8              The Polarity of Complementary Elements

Chapter 9              All the Love You Can Ever Need

Chapter 10            The Love from Heaven

Chapter 11            This Moment of Now

Chapter 12            The Sacred Heart

Chapter 13            The Star of Love

Chapter 14            The Separation from God Who Is Love

Chapter 15            All Time Is Here

Chapter 16            Weaving the Tapestry of Beauty

Chapter 17            The Eternal Soul

Chapter 18            The Eternal Soul Is Your Future

Chapter 19            Finding the Good in the World

Chapter 20            Learning to Share Your Heart

                             Epilogue

 

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Introduction

 

Origins: A Journey along the Pathway of Creation, Reminding Us Where We Came from

The evolution of conscious life has needed all the time there has ever been since the beginning of the universe for us to arrive at this moment. This is humanity’s opportunity. We can choose to become the very best that we are, and we can be so much more than we are achieving now. If we fail in this choice, we may be dissolved back into the soup of life until another opportunity emerges, as it surely will, maybe with another life form. Life knows the way, even if we choose not to see it.

The earth is a cradle, a safe place where life can evolve into consciousness; it has been our cradle in which we have been reared and nurtured. Our earth is one of the countless mothers of life throughout the universe, and maybe they are in communion with each other; like the whales in the ocean, perhaps they can speak over the vast distances and hear each other. I like to imagine that their voices pulse like waves through the universal fields of attraction that are fundamental to everything.

Make yourself comfortable for a story; we are going on a journey in our imagination. See yourself opening like a flower basking in the sunshine. Imagine that you have roots like a tree spreading down deep into mother earth. Allow the earth’s nourishing energy to flow into you. Feel her love for all living things, all her children; know that she loves you too. Allow the child within you to nestle into her arms while she tells you her story of our beginnings.

“We are made of heavy matter,” she says, “and the particles that make life are large and complex. It was not always like this. My father the sun, your grandfather, still has some of the fires of the beginning, but the true beginning was when his grandfather was born.

“This happened when the Creator opened a hand, and light exploded into being. It was thus that our fiery universe began. From these fires, the first suns were born; my great-grandfather was one of these, light and hot, filled with the exuberance of the young. There were no planets then, no cool places to sit in the shade with the sound of gently running water.

“These suns lived their long lives, and in their exploding ends, they forged new and heavier materials, creating my grandfather’s generation. New and heavier suns were born, still too light for life; there were no planets yet with waves on the seashore. These suns, too, lived their long lives. But in their exploding ends, the atoms of life were born. And from these the third generation of suns came to life. My father, our sun, is one of these.

“After my father had settled into his place on the quiet edge of our vast family of suns, I was born, along with my brothers and sisters, the planets and moons that you know too. Every step of this path was in the mind of the Creator, even before the explosion of light that marked the beginning. The first purpose was that life would be born, and I am one of the countless mothers of life throughout the universe; we are all daughters of the grandchildren of the first multitude of suns.

“As I moved from the fires of my youth into the calm of motherhood, the first life was born. Tender little things, simple but living, and I gave them all a mother’s love. Over the millions of years that followed, the next stage of the Creator’s purpose was achieved; life evolved into ever more complex forms. And from them, conscious life was born.

“Conscious beings are the children of all the forms of life that preceded them. They exist only because of the ones who lived before. Each has its vital place in the patterns of evolution. I have given them all a mother’s love.

“You are truly children of the stars and at the leading edge of evolving life; everything that ever was has helped to bring you to where you are. Give them all your love and gratitude as you prepare to move on and evolve into the next stage of the Creator’s purpose, whatever that may be.”

 

Another Journey to the Time before Creation: To Understand the Fabric of Creation Itself

This moment now, as you are reading these words, is an opportunity, like the invitation of an open doorway. If you will enter, there is a new world waiting for you. I ask you to come with me now; allow me to take you on a journey in your imagination, a journey shown to me by my eternal soul. Let us go together now to the place from where love, as we know it, begins—to the very essence of the Creator of our universe. Before this universe began, there was only the Creator, only love. Nothing else existed, only love in the darkness before our light was born.

Imagine this warm, safe, loving place in the heart of the Creator. Imagine flying back through all eternity to be in this love then, before the beginning of everything we know. Feel yourself there now, within this loving being, whose consciousness is playing with the basis of love and dreaming a new vision of a different aspect of being.

In your imagination, see this being of love holding the vision of a new creation, whose beginning will be an explosion of light. See how the principles for this new universe of light are falling into place. Imagine that everything within it is permeated with the vitality of love and with the essences of spirit and of consciousness and of vision. See that these elements are infused into every photon of the explosion of light to come and into every ripple of energy and every tiny particle about to emerge in this new universe, held there in love.

Imagine that, on this higher plane, the level of love, these essences of consciousness, spirit, and vision are the elemental and invisible threads that hold everything in the universe in harmony. All these elements are attracted to themselves and to each other; they are the spiritual gravity that brings everything together in an ever-growing complexity, quietly drawing love to love, drawing it to itself.

Imagine consciousness evolving within this divine mechanism. The inner wisdom implanted in every particle of creation makes consciousness seek itself and grow. Within consciousness there is also vision; vision enables us to see more than we are, to see beyond ourselves, to understand what else there is, to see the spiritual dimension of our world, and there to find love. These elemental essences of creation, consciousness, vision, spirit, and love, are all drawing each other together from within the soup of the universe.

Imagine love finding itself everywhere and growing, see it as a fundamental process of evolution, one that we cannot change or even influence, because it is implanted in the very essence of the universe. We can only choose; we can flow with it and grow, or we can slowly fade resisting it. When we start to see with love, then we start to know and to understand. We can then begin to let go of our limiting ideas and to live our part of the stream of life. The stream of life is the coming together of love. All this my soul has shown to me in visions and meditations, I know that, for me, it is true. Come through this book with me and find it for yourself.

 

Preface

My Journey: My Pathway from the Ordinary to the Extraordinary

For thirty years, I worked in business doing many varied and interesting things and had little connection with anything outside the physical and mental world. Mostly, I buried the emotional and denied the spiritual dimensions. I had brushes with the spiritual. I had some strange experiences, and I acknowledged them but then moved on without paying them further attention. I had no need of a cosmology for love.

It was seventeen long years of pain that finally brought me to a standstill in my middle years; it was then I discovered that I didn’t need to have the pain. Inner healing processes awoke in me, a growing awareness of a new gift, or rather the awakening of a slumbering, imprisoned gift. It took me another five years to find my path of liberation and then another five years of deep learning before living a full-time life of healing and then teaching healing too.

Five years later, my soul sent me on a journey to discover my heart and love and to understand that healing is love manifesting its presence within us. For fifteen more years, I have travelled this path. Along the way, I found that my highest self is my “eternal soul” and that we are each part of an eternal soul. This turned my understanding on its head. I had always thought of my soul as part of me. But it has become perfectly clear that it is the other way around. My soul is not part of me. Rather, I am part of my soul, and my soul is eternal.

This eternal soul looks after me, a spiritual being guiding me along my path through life, to help me to find the best way so that I will do what I am here to do, and fulfil my life’s purposes. It was in Galilee in the autumn of 2002, after my first Gift of Love workshop, when my soul spoke clearly in my heart—saying that I had fulfilled one of my life’s main purposes and shocking me by adding that I could go back now if I wanted to. I chose to stay and received many weeks of visionary experiences during the following years. And these matured into this cosmology of love.

My soul teaches me through visions and deep experiences. It showed me how love works within our universe and how the universe itself was born within love, dreamed in the heart of a loving Creator and then made manifest. This vision showed me how we are living the Creator’s dream in this moment, living our part in the eternity of the soul’s path.

This book shares some of these visions with you to explain the cosmology of love as shown to me. Each chapter has a meditative exercise to give you the opportunity to have your own experiences alongside mine, and I encourage you to do so. The visions are my experiences, given to help me understand why I am here and what my life is all about. Each chapter is written from my perspective, giving you the truth as I see it from what my soul has shown me. So when you come to the exercise, please have an open mind to receive whatever your soul wishes you to see.

 

A Preparation for Your Journey through The Cosmology of Love: Helping You Be at Ease in thePresence of Love and God

 

In this book, I often use the words love and God, and I know that many people have difficulty with one or both of them. When I reflect on what held me back from using the name of God in my early years, it was mainly the horrors of our world. I found it difficult to imagine that a loving God would allow such things to happen. How could a God who can do anything just watch the cruelties of war and the ever-present violence between people? Everywhere we look we can see ugliness; it seems to be endemic in our world. How could it be that there is a loving God behind all this?

The religion I grew up with did not answer this question for me; I prefer not to use the name Christian because it has the connotations of a sometimes very violent history. I see this especially in the Crusades, but also in the Inquisition and in the murder of countless gifted people in the name of witchcraft. Even today, we hear of the shocking abuse of young children in the care of the church.

Nevertheless, many good people have lived lives of courage and love to remind us that Jesus taught love. I too love the Jesus who taught love. It seems to me less important whether Jesus was the Messiah or the Christ, and far more important is his message of love.

So I started to look for love in our world, thinking it would be difficult to find. And it was not difficult. Everywhere I looked, I found love. All we have to do is look, and it is there. All the rest is our learning and our exploring to find what nourishes our being. Usually it is through experiencing the fear and pain of the world, which we do not want, that we eventually discover the nourishment that we do want, and that nourishment is everything that makes our hearts feel good. There is a whole world in your heart. It is there for joy and love. It flourishes in peace and beauty. It spreads harmony and happiness to the world around. It welcomes fun and laughter. It is the home of all that is best in us.

It was in my later years that I started to learn more about the heart and love, especially through teaching workshops on love and helping others to open their hearts to themselves and to each other and to the sources of life and love. For me, it is true that we teach what we most need to learn.

Through this it also became clear to me that the energy that creates life is love. Love lifts the dust of the earth into life. Life only exists because of this energy. Just as we are nurtured in our mother’s womb as we come into life, so too we are carried throughout life within a wave of love. This is a love that is always here for us. It is fully sufficient for all our needs. All we have to do is be open to it and receive it.

The vision my soul gave me showed a loving Creator of all of this, our universe. This helped me to know that, just as God is love, so too love is God. Love is the presence of God in our physical world. Wherever you find love, you are in the presence of the Creator. So now I use the words love and God freely. I know that love is life, God is God Who Is Love (and only love), and they are [A1] [A2] one.

The purpose of this book is to help you experience this too—to help you feel the truth that love is the essence of your being, and that same love is the energy that gives you life, through the ever-patient presence of the Creator within you.

I want to remind you that this book is the truth for me, based on the visions brought to me by my eternal soul. Each chapter has a descriptive sentence after the title. This reflects my experiences. I encourage you to reflect on my experiences and visions and be open to your own interpretations and experiences, seeing them alongside mine.

Chapter 1

Love Is Life

 

How does the dust of the earth become the living being that you are?

Do you sometimes wonder how life happens and how the dust of the earth becomes you? The difference between the living you and the dust of the earth is incalculable. Yet you came from that dust, and you will return to that dust. The food that nourishes you comes from that dust and mostly grows in that dust. Where does life come in? At what point does dust become life? What makes the difference?

The visions from my soul show me that love is that which holds us in life. Love provides the energy for life. Love has that power. We don’t have a word for this power of love, but we know it through the feel of it. Love is a state of being, and it has an almost tangible presence, which we sense. Yet our minds have few words to describe or explain it. The ancient Greeks called this highest form of love agape. It is the love of humans for God and the love of God for all creation; it is a transcendent love that is universal and unconditional.

Everyone who is loved is alight with life. If you want your loved ones to shine, help them to know that they are loved, and they will become radiant. That radiance is their invisible aura afire with love. The presence of one who knows he or she is loved is like a beautiful beacon shining for the world. It is wonderful, truly full of wonder, and we treasure it. When a human beacon is shining with love, we can see it. We like it, and indeed we love it! We are nourished by it too. We feel better by just being there with someone who is radiant with love.

Why do we feel better? That is, in part, what this book is all about. But in summary, my soul tells me that we live by receiving love into our hearts; the more love we receive, the better we feel. So anyone who shines a great light of love into our lives is giving us nectar for our hearts. Without love, we fade and wither; without love, there is no life. Love is life, so choose life, and choose love to nourish your heart.

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Now let me encourage you to take a moment for you. If you are accustomed to meditation, follow your personal practices. For most of us, we need some guidance. First, sit comfortably with your back and shoulders as straight as possible. Now allow your mind and body to relax. Take a few deep, slow breaths, and then let your awareness travel through your body while looking for any pockets of tension. Then release them.

Next, calm your mind and empty the thoughts. That is easier said than done, you may find. If so, use images of beauty, peacefulness, and love. Imagine yourself sitting in a special place—maybe under a tree beside a gentle stream, with sounds of running water and the rustling of leaves in a light breeze. There is a scent like wild thyme.

Imagine love shining into your being. Breathe it in, and invite your heart to open like a flower to receive it. Say, “Yes!” in your heart and accept this gift of love. Breathe the love into every corner of your being. Bathe yourself in its beauty, and feel a deep sense of gratitude.

Now invite your soul to be with you so you can be aware of its presence. Welcome it and be still, just being together. After a while, ask your soul to give you an image of love and life so you can feel how receiving love brings life and know how this relates to you and your experiences.

 

Chapter 2

Love Learned Is Who You Are

 

At your life’s end, all you can take back to your eternal soul is the love that you are; the love that you have learned in this lifetime is who you become.

All that you might think of as not love you must leave behind; it was but guidance for your learning. So what is “not love”? What is less than love? What is this learning? Why is there all this pain? Why are there hurt, anger, and grief? Why all this rage, this jealousy, and this shame? Why does all this feel like it’s less than love?

My soul shows me that it is there as a signpost to show you that this is not the way. As such, it is ephemeral and ceases to be when you leave it behind; in truth, it is part of love too. Imagine yourself as a seed planted in the earth. The roots of the young plant grow out, seeking nourishment in the darkness of the soil. It is through this seeking that the learning comes, through tasting everything and discovering what nourishes and what does not nourish. Eventually, when the plant is ready, a shoot grows up into the light, and the shoot eventually flowers into beauty. The flower is the expression of love created by the plant, and it is the flower that we take with us. It is the flower that shines in the tapestry of the universe.

Your whole purpose in living is to learn about love. This is the journey of your eternal soul, of which you are a living part. When you return to your eternal soul at your life’s end, you become that love that you have known. The love that you have experienced, given, and received in your lifetime is who you are; you are nothing more and nothing less. So it is good to start remembering all the joy, all the fun, all the love, all the peace, all the beauty, all that makes your heart sing, and all that makes up your own personal tapestry of love. The more you see the love in your life and the more you are open to that love, the more you will create love in the remainder of your life—and the more you will have become when your time here is ending.

To become a loving being requires more than giving love. We all give love; it is our pleasure to love. Receiving love often seems less important—some might say self-indulgent—but there are other very important aspects to receiving love. Your inner reservoir of love is finite. Whenever your heart is giving more than it is receiving, it must be refuelled. Or one day it may come close to empty. A heart running on empty will ask you to stop and even insist that you stop. Your heart needs fuel, your whole being needs fuel, and the fuel for life is love.

Receiving love is fundamental to a full life, and to receive love, you must be open. When your heart is open, it sometimes gets hurt. But you will learn from the hurts. The only strong heart is a heart that is open to receive and to give. With an open heart, you can become a great river of love, with the Creator’s love flowing through you and into the world. To give love freely, you must start with an open heart, and then you can receive and give love in unlimited quantities.

This is your doorway to infinity and eternity. Love is unlimited. You can be an infinite stream of love sending its waves throughout all of space and time.

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Take a few minutes for yourself again. Relax, breathe deeply, and then settle into your special place. Imagine the love of all who love you, all who ever have loved you, and indeed all who ever will love you. Imagine being open like a flower and receive their love. Say, “Yes!” in your heart. Say, “Thank you!” And bathe in its beauty. Fill yourself full to overflowing with this love; in receiving love from another, you honour their love for you.

Allow this love to bathe every level of your being, including your consciousness, your emotions, your body, and your spirit. Feel every cell opening too. Every cell is a living part of you and needs love to live. Imagine yourself floating in a warm, safe sea of love.

When you feel ready, radiate love from your now wide-open heart back to all who love you. They will feel your gratitude and love you more fully. Now radiate love back into the being of the Creator, who is love itself. Imagine yourself becoming a shining beacon of love for all this great creation. Unlimited by space or time, your love fills all eternity. You are in God’s presence here, now, in this moment.

 

Chapter 3

Love Denied Is Your Pain and Your Learning

 

This alone is reason enough for you to want to receive and to accept love; love is life, your life, but love is also essential for your healing.

Within each of us are countless atoms that, through the ages, have been part of innumerable living beings. In its beginning, each atom was forged in the living and dying of suns. We are truly born from the stars. We are children of millions of years of life, and the universe itself has needed all this time to create us. Now here you are, living in awareness of all of this. You are truly a child of the universe and of all that has been before you.

My eternal soul gave me a vision to explain how love works within each of us. This showed me that every atom in creation has its own spark of spirit and consciousness. This also means that every atom has an element of life. In order that it may live, it must be fed with the energy of life, which is love. Each living cell within you is a complex being made of millions of atoms. This very complexity lifted it over a threshold into this visibly living level of life, which is another level of being drawn from the more elemental soup of matter. All these billions of cells that make you are held in life by love’s life energy, and they will suffer if they are denied the flow of love that they need.

When your being suffers and retains the memory of suffering, then this energy of suffering is held within you, and some cells are chosen to hold it. These cells are wrapped up tightly by your mind so that the memory is buried, to shield you from remembering the pain of your suffering. This process is what keeps the memory of the pain in your unconscious, well below the awareness of your consciousness; “out of sight, out of mind” we say. This is how we try to bury the unforgettable.

There is an important but unintended consequence of this burial of painful memories. The cells that hold the memory are denied the full free flow of love that they need for life; they start to suffer for the lack of love’s life-giving energy. In addition to being denied love, they are also storing the unhealthy energy of the memory itself. The combination of these two factors means that one day these cells may become sick.

The pain of such sickness is the body’s message to you, intended to draw your mind back into remembering and allowing the suffering in the memory to be played out now in a safer time—and released. It is a perfect inner feedback system.

But if the memory is too painful or traumatic, the mind doesn’t want to remember, and it tries to keep the memory buried. The sickness then persists and may spread to other cells and to other parts of the body. In extreme situations, the sickness may even become fatal. And although it may seem as if the mind would prefer that the body dies rather than remember the buried suffering, the truth is different; it is that the mind simply does not believe that it is responsible for these consequences.

This is the world in which we live and learn, the world our more recent ancestors have created and we have upheld, and here we suffer through the denial of love in so many ways. Healing is the restoration of love to the places where love has been denied, so the body then is fed again and can restore itself. With love brought in at the right time everything can be healed. When love comes too late, some damage may be irreversible, but the love still brings the being closer to harmony again. All healing that comes with love and from love is good, and those who suffer have only to be willing to receive and to accept the love that is there for them.

Love denied is the basis for our suffering and, thus, for our learning too. And love learned is our future. Love received changes everything; it opens us to this new level of being, a quantum leap from where we are. Becoming a loving being follows receiving love as surely as day follows night.

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Give yourself some quiet time to assimilate this knowledge and to feel whether anything troubles you just now. Is there pain in your body? Is there a feeling or a memory of a younger “you”? Take whichever comes and enfold it with love. Imagine your open heart has wings like an angel’s. Fold the wings around the pain or the memory, or the younger you. And draw it into your heart’s love.

Just hold it here. Don’t try to fix it or heal it. Just love it; hold it tenderly in your heart and love it as you would a butterfly or a little bird or a little child. Treasure this moment. Be in peace, in silence, in love. After a while, when the loving feels right, tell this place in you that held the memory that you are sorry for the love it has been denied, knowing that this was not intended, and promise now to love it always. Feel the warmth of this encounter.